Words like “struggle” and “suffer” describing my depression are words perhaps for others and don’t reflect how I am while in bipolar depression. My words for how I am are “dull” and “uninterested” and “trapped” and “too depleted to be confused” and “don’t care about a universe that might as well not exist.” This is how I am in the midst of severe bipolar depression.
I’m not “struggling” or “suffering.” That’s what others see of me. These words have no meaning or relevance during my episodes of bipolar depression.*
*I recognize many post these types of insights and observations during a depressive episode. Assuredly, this is an insight and observation where – right now and currently – my bipolar depression symptoms are successfully managed.
